I'm skipping school and fasting because my body chemistry feels kind of fucked and I just want a chance to clear myself out. I actually didn't used to be this New Agey in any regard. It's weird looking at my life and thinking about how much has changed and at the same time how little. I still have a lot of progress I know I can make.

The Obama Inauguration ceremony was wonderful to watch. I'm really truly optimistic and I plan to read the paper every day for the next 100 days. *squee*

If I became president I would want Bill Callahan to be my Aretha Franklin. I'm not sure what I would want him to play though...

I love this picture. LOVE. And the shoes! I'm not big into shoes bout there's nothing sexier than Christian Louboutin heels.

I'm so excited for tomorrow. Barack Obama will be sworn in as president. I've poured so much of my heart and soul into this election and I am thrilled that it's official tomorrow. I am so proud of my country for electing him and I'm so happy that I get to be so thoroughly behind the winning candidate in the first election I have gotten to vote in.

Today I went into Atlanta alone with no music. I bought a skirt and a shirt which pleased me infinitely because I haven't felt right in any of my clothes recently. The skirt is girly and hipstery and the shirt is awesome and spooky. I cannot make friends in college though because it makes me draw into myself so no matter what I wear I'll feel awkward and out of place and draw into myself.
I also chain-smoked three cigarettes and drank coffee on a virtually empty stomach and felt ill the whole way home. It made me think about how different my life has been since only several months ago when I had never been seriously intoxicated or smoked and how different it felt to run on only the chemicals in my body as opposed to chemicals from outside sources. I don't know which I like better but I do know that I don't need to smoke anymore. I really could cut out both smoking and drinking but I never want to cut out pot. Even when I have children I'll smoke joints when they aren't home. I actually don't like drinking that much. It's fun when I'm with Sam. Period.
I think I'm going to have to find a cliff somewhere between being an adult and being a teenager to rest comfortably on because the constant climbing upward has been exhausting. And no, not with the intoxication bit.